stream of unconsciousness

Lately I’ve been feeling sluggish, dragging my 120-lb body, slinking to work, slinking home, plodding along like tired and cynical eeyore. One of the nights this past week I had a nightmare where I had to confront a serial killer and I was very futilely inserting knives all over his body. Was I stabbing? It didn’t feel like it, it just felt like I was trying to pin him down to some surface with long sharp knives and then he did the obligatory “aah I am keeled!” posture where he lies down and plays dead for five minutes, but since I’m Miss movieathon, and I’ve watched too many scary movies to be fooled, I looked at him rather suspiciously and sure enough, he gets up rather nimblely and runs off across the street and disappears into some other house’s garage, they looked like they were having a frat party there. Me and my surviving friends all locked the house and looked out with scared eyes. I woke up from that dream with every nerve stretched taut and I was just like, oh for crying out loud, how is this a good way to start the day?? And with that, I somehow managed to rouse myself and went to chow down on coffee and eggs.

I am currently reading this book on improving vision naturally. It’s an extensive treatise on how to improve one’s eyesight, based mostly on Bate’s books. Ever since I was a child, I’ve had an ongoing fantasy that I would cure myself of my major physical ailment – my poor myopic astigmatic pair of eyes. It’s actually been semi-actualized one summer when I was in Taiwan. At 14 yrs old, I set about using as much of my own eyes as possible to see everything without my glasses. When I returned to the states and got an exam, my eyes did get better! However, after that time, high school and the stresses of college hit head-on and I think my vision faced a steady decline after. So now that I’m the ripe ol’ age of 28, I think I’m way past the age where vision still changes and fluctuates. So it does disturb me that it’s gotten worse still, (went to eye doctor recently) and honestly, I think it’s just bad posture, overtaxing my eyes with the computer, etc. I have a fair degree of confidence that I can improve my vision or “revert” it back to some baseline vision. The only way to objectively test this out of course is to begin a schedule, say a 3-month stretch where I work on my eyes and then go back to the doctor to get tested.